You are not sending me too the cooler

In the great book by Alex Haley The Auto-biography of Malcom X Malcom describes how he first started to become alienated from the Nation of Islam Malcom finds out that the leader of the organization The Honorable Elijah Muhammed was in face not quite so honorable after all. He had several illiegtimate children in the south from young women whom he had abandoned. At first he thought it was merely propaganda but soon after he went down and spoke to the women who had accused the Honorable Elijah Mohammed, He also found out that Elijah Mohammed had also been badmouthing him behind his back. Malcom had idolized Elijah Mohammed and had preached his doctorine for many years. He would begin many of his statements with 'the honorable Elijah Mohammed tells us such and such and had championed his ideals and grown his organization for the years. He later was further chastised after says the that assianation of President John F. Kennedy was an example of 'the chickens coming home to roost.' This remark eventually led to his censure by the Nation of Islam and eventually leaving the Nation of Islam to form his own organization and go on the Haijj. But I digress because the one thing he said after find out about Elijah Muhammed was that 'My faith was shaken in a way I could never explain.' I have felt that way recently. Got burned by someone I regarded as a really good friend when I was in a vulnerable position, A breach of trust unexpected and caught quite by suprise. Someone I knew and trusted for almost three years completely fucking me over for no particular reason at all. Its the sort of thing that shakes your faith in people in general and humanity at large. So many assholes. So many examples of cruelty and malice visited upon people all around the world. From small scale examples like mine to large ones such as totouturs, and evil dictatorships to child rapists and pepophiles. Like the 'doughboy' case in Greenfield Mass where a family had held a retarded man hostage for weeks toutureing him for several weeks. It was in fact a house a had passed frequently walking around the neighborhood. But there are always examples of good people sometimes but in the minority.