Why is everbody always badmouthing the mafia?

Feeling better somehow every day. Been a long time but I am slowly starting to see. Was watching this vile program Secret Girlfriend on comedy central. Hate being around a lot of hot women. Just reminds me of my shortcomings in that regard. As if they're very existence and my failure to get one if proof of my futility. Strange how simple things like that can cause someone so much anxiety. Can't seem to calm down raging thought which seem to be springing up like a raging tide. I know there must be a way to figure out how to get things done.