There is a rancor in our hearts which you can little know

Despair, disgruntled, demoralized, dispirited. It seems as if all words describing some form of sadness or discontent come in ds. It all seems like a vast chasm of nothingness, of something out of sync or not right. A path trodden with little direction wandering aimlessly finding nothing. I just don't know what the fuck to do. About anything. I feel like Simon Pegg's character in 'Shaun of the dead' in a state of despair feeling with worlds about to end as the world itself turns into a zombie apocolypse. I need a shaman, and elder, somehow with wisdom. Something. Just can't seem to figure out what. A peice of the puzzle is missing.